What if it was my last Ramadan?
Wow, what a simple yet profound question.
I often wonder and think to myself, “what if it WAS my last Ramadan?” What if I were to die this year? What if I were to die next week ? Would I be ready to meet Allah? Would I be ready to withstand the greatest fitnah in the grave?
My answer still lingers in my mind. I want to answer with an enthusiastic “YES! Yes I am ready!” but then a part of me steps back and re-evaluates my current state of imaan, my current list of deeds, and the intentions in my heart. Are they pure enough to earn Allah’s pleasure? Does my imaan make me remember Allah 24/7 and what about my deeds? Am I doing enough?
Questions, questions, questions. But where are my answers?
I realised I have been so preoccupied with other priorities, I had taken a step back with my progress with Allah. How easy it is to get caught up with our worldly affairs even if it means with just our daily routines and expanding our social network. How easy it is to replace your passion for your deen with your passion for the culinary, the social, and the arts. Little diversions will lead to bigger ones if you don’t stop yourself in your tracks and realise “hey, I’m not spending as much time as I should on strengthening that rope with my Lord.” But sometimes, the more diverted you become, the harder it is for you to get back on track and could you just imagine, dying at that moment in time when you are far from Allah?
I often ponder the thought: “What if I died this very moment? What would I be doing? How would I be resurrected?” I now see the importance of always trying to fill our lives with Islam (every moment of our lives). Even if it is simply making dhikr of the tongue while cooking, reading Qur’an before you do anything or praying two rakaat before you take a nap or go to sleep. You are at least doing something that, if you were to die, you would die knowing that you remembered Allah every moment that you could. We can never physically prepare ourselves for our death, but we can try our best to prepare ourselves earning the Mercy and Forgiveness of Allah when we are in our graves or standing in line on the Day of Judgement. *shiver*
Time is precious and can you honestly say that you are using your time wisely? Ramadan is not just a time for us to eat and sleep. This Ramadan, try to start getting your act together as you never know if this will be your last Ramadan. I can’t express to you and to myself just how important time is, as it states in the Qur’an:
By Al-‘Asr (the time).
Verily! Man is in loss,
Except those who believe (in Islamic Monotheism) and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth (i.e. order one another to perform all kinds of good deeds (Al-Ma’ruf) which Allah has ordained), and abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds (Al-Munkar) which Allah has forbidden), and recommend one another to patience (for the sufferings, harms, and injuries which one may encounter in Allah’s Cause during preaching His religion of Islamic Monotheism etc).
Time is a non-refundable transaction in this dunya, but can be refunded to you in the Akhirah if you spend it wisely. This blessed month is a time for reflection, solitude, and strengthening your relationship with your Creator.
Once Ramadan is over, we should not become relaxed and fall back into our old routines but we should work hard to continue picking up where we left off with all the hard work we did during the blessed month. Continue to strive after Ramadan, that is when you really reap the most benefits. Ramadan is a huge mercy and blessing from Allah and if we utilize it properly, we should come out of this beloved month as a new person who is more obedient and conscious of Allah, the almighty.
If this was your last Ramadan would you be content with what you accomplished this month?